So Life.......yeah... its been great and its been bad. When I think I'm heading to where I want to be I end up holding myself back and not getting there. I dont know why I do it. I realize that I truly have nothing to lose and everything to gain. So why not just take the leap? Get what I want.... I'm not sure of that answer. Its probably some sort of insecurity caused by something...wish I knew what. Maybe there is some one who could help me find it and deal with it. Or someone who doesnt really care about what ever it is that makes me insecure...and just likes me for who I am and maybe more. Maybe... just maybe, that person has been right in front of me for the longest time too. There are people I like, of course. One in particular..... But I flirt with them and dont do anything more and they end up passing me by. I lay in bed and night and wonder why...and even think about times I shouldve made a move and how I wouldve done it... Thats the problem with my life. There are a lot of "shouldves" and wouldves". Nothing too definite.... I wish that I could look back at those situations and say that I DID WHAT I now feel like I shouldve done. And as I look forward at situations I plan what I will/want to do. and do I end up doing it.....NO. But I want to..but again something is holding me back. You would think with the way I am able to open myself up for the world to see that I would be able to figure it out...... Maybe.....Hopefully.... If not its just going to be more of the same...me living life pretending to be fine.. Well I am fine....just not as good as I want to be. No where as happy as I could be. But hopefully soon I will take the actions that I feel like I should... and have the life I want to have..
Look for a new writing from me in the next few days working on a song/poem thing....
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I think that you should really start to make those moves then. If you don't then life is going to pass you by even faster than before.
In the words of Benjamin Franklin:
'Dost thou love life? Then do not squander time, for that is the stuff life is made of.'
Live in the moment... live in the life God has meant you to lead... take the chances that are thrown at you... time isn't going to stop for you to live.
Hope that this helps a little bit.
KNZ
I think u should make those moves to.
I don't have much to say but Mackenzie pretty much said it all.
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